I didn't want to post this at first because it is quite a personal song for me but I'm posting it in hopes that God will use it to influence your life.

Because of Me

They say they feel your presence and I can see you on each face
But the place in me where you should be feels like an empty space
They sing and shout and praise your name and dance all down the aisle
And as to not look out of place I sing along and smile
Their holy hands are lifted high and unashamed their battle cry is
Holy is the Lord, my God, He reigns
But this thorn in my side has caused me pain

Where are you God? Your face I cannot see
All this sin still present in my life shows me that I need you to be
Before time you chose me, so I know you'll never leave
But I can't see you, because of me

I know your word is always true and it's clear about the right
But this sweet sin, she draws me in with colors and bright lights
"Come follow me" she calls each day, I'll surely fit right in
Because I'd rather be a harlot, than go fishing for your men
Oh Lord, I'm tired of living like a righteous man in my own eyes
My Fig leaf suit is rotting away
Oh God, you hear me when I say

Where are you God? Your face I cannot see
All this sin still present in my life shows me that I need you to be
Before time you chose me, so I know you'll never leave
But I can't see you, because of me